Thursday, September 30, 2004

the blogger known as Soloflite

A couple of blogger friends of mine Cat and Denise were on the air recently, in a local radio talk show. While they talked about blogging, bloggers, blogaholia, and shamelessly plugged their sites (and forgot about poor little old me), it got me thinking -

Why Exactly do I blog?

It's actually been on my mind for the longest time. I once wrote a post about why I blog , but squeezing out my brain cells out of its creative juices is just part of the reason. Now that Im thinking about it, I guess there are a lot of other hidden motives out there.

Some bloggers have certain ideas about why I blog worth mentioning. Shiksagoddess said im just damn Narcissistic. Sealdi told me I was Schizophrenic. Everyone else tells me im simply crazy.

Not true of course.
Its a complicated kind of crazy.

I once told Sarah that I blog not for money, not for fame but for the simple reason that I have been so repressed as a writer that I wanted an avenue to practice my real writing. For money and fame later on of course.

I shared to Joy that I write impulsively, hacking away at the keyboard on every little idea that comes into mind, slowly forming a coherent post in notepad long before my brain can keep up. It is a unknown urge, this thing which drives me to write. Sometimes it hits me when im buzzed, half asleep or even drunk, but always, always finds a way to get the post done. And thus, the brain has no choice but to follow what the body demands.

Another Joy (yes, there are a lot of joys in blogging) , was surprised at how defensive I was when she called my blog an online diary. Again, It's NOT A DIARY. It's a web LOG. Theres a difference.

So what is it then?

What is this blog if I dont post about my lovelife? Or my social life? Or even the nature of my work? Heck, I don't even let out my last name here.

Maybe the chat with Denise cleared it up: Blogging just lets me give in to that most basic of human needs, A need to reaffirm your existence. An irresistable urge to express yourself and to share your thoughts to the world. And more imporantly, without impunity.

Thus I seek to express myself in ways I cannot in my life as a lowly mortal.

In real life, I am but one of the billions of humans who walked in this planet, flawed, obscure and forever compared to the giants of Jose Rizal, Leonardo Da Vinci or Miyamoto Musashi. I could probably never be as rich as Bill Gates, or as famous as Tom Cruise. I could probably never be as smart as Einstein or as damn goodlooking as David Beckham. In real life, I am but one small person. I am but still insignificant.

But in my blog, it is different. In my blog, I happily bastardize Saddam Hussein to his face, make a mockery of Gloria Macapagal Arroyo or even change the idiocities of the present . In my blog, angels and demons watch over me, Love is but an answer away, and Death is but a dream. My blog is my own world and in this world, I am God.

But then again, even God craves attention.

If eyes are the windows to the soul, Blogs are surely at least peepholes. Thru my blog, I share the pictures that make me smile, and joke about the tiny little mishap that could have killed me long before. I talk about the misadventures or inanities in my past which looking back, have shaped me in what I have become. I cry in frustration at the haplessness of things that have been done or raise my fist to the promise of the future. Because for some unknown, inexplicable way, I need to bare my soul.

This is why I must blog.

52 comments:

Anonymous said...

nice. well written words :)

akira

Latte Lover said...

"but for the simple reason that I have been so repressed as a writer that I wanted an avenue to practice my real writing"

yes! no editor to worry about nor taboo topics to avoid (except of course those that you yourself choose to avoid, like your lovelife and work. hehe). it's just the blogger - unedited & uncensored - publishing his thoughts on the web.

JriDDles said...

[1] Funny how bloggers need to reaffirm their existence in...tadaahh...the virtual cyberspace.

[2] Further I would have wanted to extend my hand/s to congratulate your team for winning the UAAP crown. But you see, I had a mishap that strangely got my hands inflamed. Just a SORE way of saying (roll in song by April Boy Regino, 'Di ko kayang tanggapin!

Anonymous said...

nice insight on blogging...

personally, i blog as an outlet lang for anything that's on my mind... i live in the province kasi and i don't have much friends here since i moved...can't relate kasi..hehehe

www.neverbeenkissed.blogdrive.com

Anonymous said...

correction: not was, YOU ARE SCHIZOPHRENIC,

but the reasons why you blog are definitely your own. however, your blog personality is not defined by how you see yourself, but how other bloggers see you.

-sealdi

Anonymous said...

hello! i got to your blog through a link from the philippine blog awards. i must say that i was impressed, to me you are a good writer as well as a good *typer.*
about your post, i agree that a blog is different fom a diary... way different, and that blogging is really doing what you want in writing. it makes me wanna ask you if 'you blog for anybody?' cause i'm sure i don't. have a nice day!

-Lek
/plainbits.com

Anonymous said...

hello! i got to your blog thru a link from the philippine blog awards site. i must say am impressed, to me you are a writer as well as a good *typer.*
about your post, i agree that a blog is different from a diary... way too different, and that blogging is really putting into words what you want to do or what's on your mind. it makes me wanna ask if 'you blog for anybody?' because i'm sure i don't. have a nice day!

lek.
blogging for nobody.
/plainbits.com

Jules said...

why do I blog, that's the question! I blog because some things when talked verbally sounds wierd or stupid but if it's posted here, it would sound provocative and profound. And besides, I won't have to apologize to anyone as to what I write in the blog. It's more than a journal, it's perhaps an extension of our id.

Anonymous said...

id love to see a reaction about our wni against FEU :D

mades said...

newbie here..hmm..typer..writer..all the words flow from one brain right? you have an artful way of being bashful...though the "i am god" thing seem a lil too much.. but you're the boss right? ;P

Anonymous said...

reluctant blogger: no need to explain why you blog. it's like trying to explain why you like to write, play sports, watch movies, humiliate yourself (hehe). you just do! and why is my site tempting? =)

buRpday guRL said...

LOL! yun lang. bwahahahahha

Via (Manila) said...

a yes, the blogger's cause must live on! :) Left a reply for you in our site btw.

graveyaaaarrd_zombie said...

wow. this is the most interesting entry i've read on such topic. nice :)

keep blogging ;)

Basket said...

Vous avez un blog très agréable et je l'aime, je vais placer un lien de retour à lui dans un de mon blogs qui égale votre contenu. Il peut prendre quelques jours mais je ferai besure pour poster un nouveau commentaire avec le lien arrière.

Merci pour est un bon blogger.

editor said...

Enjoyed reading your blog. Well Done!
I thought the possibility to watch satellite on pc might be interesting.Imagine having the possibility to have live satellite on your pc.
Watch sky cable for free on your laptop and never miss your favourite program.

Thanks for you visit said...

Greetings,

I Really think you have a great blog here, and see you have a very high page ranking, I found this info out from this page. http://pr.blogflux.com/ Try it out.



I have several pages of my own,

I'ts about femme Clothing. This site is in French language.
My second site is about Chaussures that is Shoes in french and bottes that is boots in french.

My Third site is about Chocolate that is made in France. The Frech language just drops to e at the end so it is chocolat

nope said...

Hi,

I'm sorry for being intrusive in to your blog. But I am Melissa and I am a mother of two that is just trying to get out of an incredible financial debt. See my hubby is away in Iraq trying to protect this great country that we live in, and I am at home with our two kids telling bill collectors please be patiant. When my husband returns from war we will beable to catch up on our payments. We have already had are 2001 Ford repossessed from the bank, and are now down to a 83 buick that is rusted from front to back and the heater don't work, and tire tax is due in November.

I'm not asking for your pitty because we got our ownselfs into this mess but we would love you and thank you in our prayers if you would just keep this link on your blog for others to view.

God Bless You.

Melissa K. W.
To see my family view this page. My Family


Web Detective - Investigate Anyone Using the Internet

Spyware Cleaner

Discover The Unrevealed Secrets That Casino Owners Are Hiding From You And Learn How To Start Making A Minimum of $1000 Every Time You Play The Slot Machines

Anonymous said...

your Blog Site and it is related to the keyword SLOT CAR just like my

Anonymous said...

Hi I just wanted to send a quick note to let you know I really enjoyed

Anonymous said...

Help me Dude, I'm lost.

I was searching for Elvis and somehow ended up in your blog, but you know I'm sure I saw Elvis in the supermarket yesterday.

No honest really, he was right there in front of me, next to the steaks singing "Love me Tender".

He said to me (his lip was only slightly curled) "Boy, you need to get yourself a shiny, new plasmatv to go with that blue suede sofa of yours.

But Elvis said I, In the Ghetto nobody has a plasma tv .

Dude I'm All Shook Up said Elvis. I think I'll have me another cheeseburger then I'm gonna go home and ask Michael Jackson to come round and watch that waaaay cool surfing scene in Apocalypse Now on my new plasma tv .

And then he just walked out of the supermarket singing. . .

"You give me love and consolation,
You give me strength to carry on "

Strange day or what? :-)

Anonymous said...

hey nice posts i added you to my bookmarks

Just wanted to say everything you posted was a good read.
Its nice too see that some people create decent and entertaining blogs, yours kept me reading for well over 10 minutes.

Thanks!

Anonymous said...

San Diego is having a Hot Rod Halloween on Sunday, October 30. If you love st louis auto show then you will want to be there! All kinds of st louis auto show will be in attendance. For more information go to st louis auto show
See Ya There!!

circlejerker said...

Was just out blog browsing and came upon your site.

Noticed you have some pretty similar content, so thought I would share my site with you. My site is about asian anal sex and you will not find a better site on the net about it. So check it out.

Anonymous said...

I love spending time looking through quality blogs and your is certainly well done. I will come back often to see the updates and additional content,

I have a eBay Motors site. It pretty much covers eBay Motors related items and services. You may find some of my content of interest.

Drop by and pay me a visit when you have a free moment.

Anonymous said...

Your blog has made a lasting impression on me. Great content, well thought out and original.

I have a Sell Car Online site. It pretty much covers Sell Car Online related items and services. You may find some of my content of interest.

Come by and visit my site.

Anonymous said...

Nice post. Check out my site if you can. unsecured loan

Google Page Rank 6 said...

Increase your Adsense Earnings

I noticed you have adsense ads on your page, Would you like to increase your earnings from them, Free and Legitimate way to make your clicks increase.
Come see my Blogger blog and it will tell you more.

Anonymous said...

I love your blog! I also have a site about launch wakeboard
. You can check it out at launch wakeboard
.

Also, as a special bonus for your visitors, i want to tell you about a site that is giving away a FREE Sony DVD Handycam! Just click the link below and enter your Zipcode to see if you qualify.

FREE Sony DVD Handycam

Google Page Rank 6 said...

Want more clicks to your Adsense Ads on your Blog?

Then you have to check out my blog. I have found a FREE and Legitimate way that will increase your earnings.

Come Check us out. How to Boost Your AdSense Revenue

Casino online said...

best online casino directory Stai cercando qualcosa tipo best online casino directory sei nel posto giusto! Intendiamo fornirti tutte le informazioni necessarie per best online casino directory e iniziare a giocare nei migliori casinò italiani e consigliarti best online casino directory tentando di soddisfare i tuoi bisogni di giocatore, puoi giocare anche gratuitamente senza alcun costo. Scarica il software gratuito dei seguenti casinò di qualità e di gioco onesto, scelti per te nella vasta rete di internet. best online casino directory

Casino online said...

play free casino game online Nel nostro sito molte informazioni: play free casino game online Una guida ai giocatori online: play free casino game online Per i professionisti del gioco e per i nuovi giocatori, visita i siti play free casino game online troverai quello che stai cercando, per ulteriori informazioni riguardo play free casino game online visita il siti Casino pubblicati in questa guida. Software gratis sia per il download che per il gioco, ma puoi giocare anche con soldi reali. Gioca ora ai migliori casinò online della rete internet con le più alte probabilità di vincita, selezionati e verificati da professionisti del gioco d'azzardo. Scegli il tuo casinò, gioca ora! Provare per credere. play free casino game online

Anonymous said...

Wow, I really like this one. I have a website that talks mostly about get rich quick scams You should check it out sometime.

japanese bonsai tree said...

Hi solo flite, I was out blog surfing looking for some info on guide to bonsai tree when I ended up on your page. Obviously I ended up a little off base, but your topic caught my eye. While I am here, I just wanted to drop a quick note to comment your blog...now to move on and continue my search for guide to bonsai tree. I am going to
bookmark your site for future reference and reading. Should you ever need it, you can get specific information about guide to bonsai tree at the site above.

japanese bonsai tree said...

Hi solo flite, you have a nice blog. Today I was out blog surfing looking for detailed info on how to grow bonsai tree when I found your page. Your site is not an exact match but it did catch my interest. I am going to add you to my favorite list of blogs for future reading and reference. Should you ever need information on how to grow bonsai tree then drop by the site above and check it out.

indoor bonsai plant said...

Hi solo flite, I found your blog informative. While out blog surfing today for specific info on how to grow bonsai tree, I ended up on your page. Your site shows that I ended up a little off base, but I am certainly glad I stopped by. I will bookmark your site for a future visit, and should you ever need it, there is plenty of information on this site about how to grow bonsai tree.

how to make a bonsai tree said...

Hi solo flite, you have a nice blog. Today I was out blog surfing looking for detailed info on bonsai plant care when I found your page. Your site is not an exact match but it did catch my interest. I am going to add you to my favorite list of blogs for future reading and reference. Should you ever need information on bonsai plant care then drop by the site above and check it out.

how to make a bonsai tree said...

Hi solo flite, you have a nice blog. Today I was out blog surfing looking for detailed info on bonsai tree care when I found your page. Your site is not an exact match but it did catch my interest. I am going to add you to my favorite list of blogs for future reading and reference. Should you ever need information on bonsai tree care then drop by the site above and check it out.

japanese maple bonsai said...

Hi there solo flite, a real useful blog. Can you believe it? When blog surfing for detailed info on how to grow bonsai I ended up on your page. Obviously your site is not exactly what I was searching for, but your site caught my interest. Just wanted to drop a quick note to comment your blog...now to move on and continue my search for how to grow bonsai. Should the need ever arise where you need information on how to grow bonsai then drop by for a look.

guide to bonsai tree said...

Hi solo flite, I was out blog surfing looking for some info on how to grow bonsai tree when I ended up on your page. Obviously I ended up a little off base, but your topic caught my eye. While I am here, I just wanted to drop a quick note to comment your blog...now to move on and continue my search for how to grow bonsai tree. I am going to
bookmark your site for future reference and reading. Should you ever need it, you can get specific information about how to grow bonsai tree at the site above.

bonsai tree said...

Hi solo flite...Wow! While I was searching for info on bonsai I somehow found your page. Obviously I ended up a little off base, but I am certainly glad I stopped by for a read. While I am here, I just wanted to drop a quick note to comment your blog...now to move on and continue my search for bonsai. Should you ever need it, there's lots of information on this site about bonsai.

bonsai said...

Hi there solo flite, a real useful blog. Can you believe it? When blog surfing for detailed info on bonsai I ended up on your page. Obviously your site is not exactly what I was searching for, but your site caught my interest. Just wanted to drop a quick note to comment your blog...now to move on and continue my search for bonsai. Should the need ever arise where you need information on bonsai then drop by for a look.

bonsai tree said...

Hi solo flite, you have a nice blog. Today I was out blog surfing looking for detailed info on bonsai tree care when I found your page. Your site is not an exact match but it did catch my interest. I am going to add you to my favorite list of blogs for future reading and reference. Should you ever need information on bonsai tree care then drop by the site above and check it out.

bonsai tree said...

Hi solo flite...Wow! While I was searching for info on bonsai I somehow found your page. Obviously I ended up a little off base, but I am certainly glad I stopped by for a read. While I am here, I just wanted to drop a quick note to comment your blog...now to move on and continue my search for bonsai. Should you ever need it, there's lots of information on this site about bonsai.

bonsai plant said...

Hi solo flite, I was out blog surfing looking for some info on bonsai tree when I ended up on your page. Obviously I ended up a little off base, but your topic caught my eye. While I am here, I just wanted to drop a quick note to comment your blog...now to move on and continue my search for bonsai tree. I am going to
bookmark your site for future reference and reading. Should you ever need it, you can get specific information about bonsai tree at the site above.

bonsai tree said...

Hi solo flite, your blog is excellent. As I was surfing around today looking for detailed info on bonsai tree I somehow ended up on your page. As your described site, this post is not exactly related to my search, I am certainly glad I stopped by. Oh well, back to surfing and I am sure I will find what I am looking for, and should you ever need information about bonsai tree, then stop by for a look. Thanks for the post.

bonsai tree care said...

Hi solo flite, I was out blog surfing looking for some info on guide to bonsai tree when I ended up on your page. Obviously I ended up a little off base, but your topic caught my eye. While I am here, I just wanted to drop a quick note to comment your blog...now to move on and continue my search for guide to bonsai tree. I am going to
bookmark your site for future reference and reading. Should you ever need it, you can get specific information about guide to bonsai tree at the site above.

bonsai tree care said...

Hi solo flite...Wow! While I was searching for info on bonsai plant I somehow found your page. Obviously I ended up a little off base, but I am certainly glad I stopped by for a read. While I am here, I just wanted to drop a quick note to comment your blog...now to move on and continue my search for bonsai plant. Should you ever need it, there's lots of information on this site about bonsai plant.

bonsai care said...

Nice post, you can find out more about bonsai tree care at http://www.lost-bonsai-secrets.com

bonsai tree care said...

Hi solo flite...Wow! While I was searching for info on bonsai I somehow found your page. Obviously I ended up a little off base, but I am certainly glad I stopped by for a read. While I am here, I just wanted to drop a quick note to comment your blog...now to move on and continue my search for bonsai. Should you ever need it, there's lots of information on this site about bonsai.

bonsai tree said...

Hi solo flite, I found your blog informative. While out blog surfing today for specific info on bonsai tree, I ended up on your page. Your site shows that I ended up a little off base, but I am certainly glad I stopped by. I will bookmark your site for a future visit, and should you ever need it, there is plenty of information on this site about bonsai tree.

OPFM Admin said...

I know that you are probably very busy. When you get the chance, could you please critique my site for me at online opportunities.