Sunday, September 05, 2004

A living Zombie

Sleep is overrated.

Here i am again. 2am and wide awake.

I'm an insomniac. And worse, I'm a light sleeper.
It's the biggest double whammy you could ever have.

First, I have a helluva time sleeping at night, and believe me, i tried everything. Looks like only drugs or alcohol can force me to sleep. And since I really DO want to live beyond 30, I cant have those on a regular basis (which raises the question... will i really live beyond 30 if i sleep a mere 2-3 hours each day?)

And Second, once I DO fall asleep, I tend to wake up often. This brings my average daily sleep to 2-4 hours in batches of 30 minutes to 3 hours at a time. Not exactly the healthiest of options...

I hate this wretched body. Why do we need to sleep anyway? Its not like you get more misstakes made when you dont get your rest, right?

Sensual Nirvana

I never doubted that the loss of one of the five senses would heighten the other four. Because when you're lying down, unable to sleep, unable to move, see, taste or smell anything different, guess which one of the senses take over?

On horribly, horribly bad cases of insomnia, my sense of hearing becomes so acute to a point that im even aware of the conversations of the five or six people walking around on the street, the occassional tricycle vrooming past hitting a pothole, and notice even the subtle differences between car and van engines as they go by. Add to that, the light whirring of the airconditioner that isnt even noticable during the daytime suddenly sounds like a freakin chainsaw... (its either that or my imagination just goes into overdrive)

Kinda reminds me of The Vampire Lestat when he buried himself under the earth to get away from it all (evil, murdering, bloodsucking, undead creatures need vacations too you know.) Apparently, this guy's the ultimate insomniac.

Bereft of all senses except hearing, he became so good at it that, he could hear conversations miles away. He learned about the changes the 20th century brought in: the lingo, the music and the news around around the world. Finally, he emerged out of his dreamy state after decades of just lying around and trying to get some sleep.

And what do pasty-faced, sunlight hating undead creatures do when they want to blend in? He became a rockstar.

Sigh. I doubt I'd make it great in music though. Even the stupid videoke machines dont work with me. I'd probably be a William Hung minus the Ricky Martin-wannabe act.

The Diet Coke of Sleeping

Because I probably have achieved sensual nirvana, once i do fall asleep, the slightest change in my environment: an aircon problem, a light turned on, or some idiot getting beaten up by a roving gang across the street is enough to wake me up. Ugh.

When I become uber rich and powerful, I'll get one of those coffinlike things that Matt Murdock slept in in Daredevil. That'll get me the sleep I need.

In the meantime, here i am, a, the newest member of the undead family: A wretched blogger, unawake, unasleep. Continously writing without restriction, perpetually mocking the basic rules of good grammar, violently squeezing out idea after inane idea, and trying desperately to reduce brain activity to Zoolandish levels in the hopes of finally shutting down the insomnia switch.

Wish me luck.

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

i love zoolander! i love lestat! sorry you coulded sleep. i know ur not askin for a tip but try taking calcium pills and warm milk. it'll help. or other ... count sheeps. better yet count sexy tennis gurls.

i wish i known you were up lastnite. would go for a chitchat. ~yawn~ guess who didn't sleep well lastnite?

whappak.

-the diet coke of des. hahha

Mec said...

:)

i dunno, most people actually commit more mistakes and get into more accidents and bite more people's heads off... when they lack sleep...

so it just might have some benefits :)

April said...

Hehehe. Man... the other night... I didn't sleep until 3:30 AM. Lol. I'm a freakn' night owl during labor day weekend in the states.

Anonymous said...

your brain is overactive that's why you can't sleep. dementia is actually not healthy. but then insomnia is a sign of dementia. look what happened to edward norton's character in fight club (that is if you haven't read of the book which came before the movie of course), he developed some alterego...everytime he thought he's sleeping the alterego actually takes over him...ergo, he's not sleeping at all.

actually, i'm starting to believe your alterego's the one who's writing down all these posts. it's soloflite, not adrian. you though adrian is asleep but it's soloflite who'se actually taking over and vice versa.

all the more the reason to be afraid of you.

Anonymous said...

your brain is overactive that's why you can't sleep. dementia is actually not healthy. but then insomnia is a sign of dementia. look what happened to edward norton's character in fight club (that is if you haven't read of the book which came before the movie of course), he developed some alterego...everytime he thought he's sleeping the alterego actually takes over him...ergo, he's not sleeping at all.

actually, i'm starting to believe your alterego's the one who's writing down all these posts. it's soloflite, not adrian. you though adrian is asleep but it's soloflite who'se actually taking over and vice versa.

all the more the reason to be afraid of you.

-sealdi

solo flite said...

diet des: Whapak! YM Problems :(

Mec: for me, i just accidentally bite people's heads off :)

April: Hate it when that happens. ugh.

Sealdi: hmmm... good points...

brain overactive... check!

dementa... check!

edward norton/Brad pitt... hmmm (looks at mirror) ...medyo lang :)

loryces said...

I'm an insomniac. And worse, I'm a light sleeper.

>>> ugh. double whammy nga. i love sleep! i cant get enough of it hehe! nang-inggit daw ba? har har.

Jennie said...

aha! so you're a fellow child of the night. i normally get to sleep at 3am and wake up at 6am. 10-15 minute powernaps during the day makes a lot of difference :)

drinking milk before you go to sleep does wonders, they say, but i can't vouch for it coz i'm lactose intolerant. hehehe.

Anonymous said...

solo, you're actually exhibiting multiple personalities? hahahaha.

a quite comforting thought: the world's greatest thinkers are insomniacs.

sabi nga ni roethke, "i wake to sleep, and i take my waking slow." not much in the context of insomniacs of course...pero ganun din un. :D

-sealdi

aYa said...

i feel for you man.. i suffer from the same thing (most of the time). at least you could still spell and write after being awake for so long..haha. When reading this post i remembered the movie Fight Club where Edward Norton plays Jack, who suffers from insomnia. He had to find emotional release, which allowed him to sleep. So, he attended support group meetings each night of the week for whatever ailment imaginable.

or you can just stick to drugs and alcohol..hehe. whatever it is, good luck man!


"Funny thing about insomnia, you're never completely asleep, but you're never completely awake either."
- Jack from the movie Fight Club

Jac said...

Awwwww sweet dreams ;) LOL